by Careful Gaze
This is another one that stylistically went through many changes in the writing process. It started out as a spoken word-based track that turns into a more riff-based song at the end. It was proggy but didn’t really fit the subject matter, so Preston and I reworked it while eating oat flour-coated dates in our practice space. This was one that when we finally arrived at the style that we perform it in now, it just clicked. The second half of this song reminds me of 90’s space rock bands such as Hum which makes it very nostalgic to hear and play. This may be my favorite/the best song on the album.
Rainbows is written about the complications of growing up different than others. This song is about an adolescent growing up and struggling to express their feelings, orientation, and sexuality correctly. They grow up ashamed of their feelings and questions because of the response they receive because of their family.
This happens all too often. I have people close to me that have been very hurt by incorrect upbringings. Now with that being said:
Being a parent is hard - and I know that making the distinction between caring for your child when it’s difficult, and going too far, is difficult. That’s why I’m not a parent yet. However, all too easily children grow up depressed with a sense of self-loathing because they are punished for exploring who they are. There’s a difference between love and control and sometimes those lines are blurred.
In this case it’s the story of a child who doesn’t act / dress / feel and look like “the rest of the boys” and growing up knowing his mother and father are ashamed of them, because not fitting their standards of what that should look like is hurting their own social status.
Ultimately I wrote this to do two things:
a) Encourage those going through situations like this that they are not alone, and they should not hate themselves based on the opinions of other people. Learn to love yourself and take care of yourself first, even if that’s not easy. Feedback from loved ones is important but if can also be unhealthy depending on the situation. Ultimately you have to decide how to express yourself based on what is right for you. This may mean you lose some people. If they are your true supporters and what you are doing is not harmful to yourself, they will stay with you even if they do not agree with your lifestyle.
b) Remind those around people in this situation to be cautious. Don’t get so wrapped up in your own ideals of how someone should look, dress, act, who they should love, etc, that you beat down or destroy someone else. The time for black and white labels in these sort of situations have passed. We are all humans here for a reason. Ask yourself how much the smaller details matter before you ruin someone else’s life for your own beliefs/preferences.